Seeing and Believing
John 20:1-18[1]
In the face of all our discussion
of suffering during Lent, it may seem like faith in Jesus’ resurrection from the dead on
that first Easter morning might have little relevance for our lives right here
and right now. In comparison with the kinds of experiences we have to endure in
this life, something that happened so long ago and so far away might simply not
seem to make a real difference in our lives. Beyond that, when you look at the
massive suffering and violence that seem to dominate the world in which we
live, it’s all too easy to conclude that money and power and violence have the
last word in our world. These harsh realities can make faith seem at best
quaint and at worst a delusion.[2]
The fact of the matter is that we live in a world where it’s not easy to truly
embrace the faith that Jesus’ death and resurrection brings new life to us all.
I’m not so sure that the original
witnesses to the resurrection had an easier time with faith. Our Gospel lesson
for today presents several different responses to the resurrection. Mary
Magdalene seems to react initially with fear when she sees that the stone has
been move from the tomb. So she runs back and tells the Apostles. In response,
Peter and John run to the tomb. John the beloved disciple is the first one to
reach it, but he hesitates to enter, perhaps out of the Jewish concern for
becoming “unclean.” Later, when he does enter, the Scripture says that he “saw
and believed.” When St. Peter gets there, he sees the empty tomb, and examines
the wrappings that had been used to prepare Jesus’ body for burial, but it
seems he doesn’t understand what to make of all this. The Gospel reminds us
that “they did not understand the scripture, that he must rise from the dead”
(John 20:9).
Three people, witnessing the same
events, with three different responses: fear, confusion, and faith. I think the
first two responses pretty well explain themselves. When confronted with the
empty tomb, I think it would have only been natural for those who had witnessed
Jesus’ terrible death to react with fear or confusion. It’s John’s faith that
seems to be hard to explain. What was it about what he saw that enabled him to
believe?[3]
After all, he saw the same thing they did. It could be that John did remember
and understand that Jesus had said he would have to suffer and die, but
afterward he would rise from the dead. Or maybe John was just one of those
people for whom faith comes easily.[4]
Perhaps the difference was in the way he saw what they had all witnessed.
When Mary returns, it would seem
that she is still overwhelmed with grief and fear. She actually encounters
Jesus, but she doesn’t recognize him. She mistakes him for a gardener and
actually asks him if he’s taken the body somewhere. It’s only when Jesus calls
her by name that she recognizes him and believes.[5] It
takes his voice, his initiative to reveal himself to her, in order for her to
get past her grief and fear and to be able to see in such a way that she could
recognize that Jesus was alive and standing right in front of her. Once she was
able to get past her own feelings and see clearly that Jesus truly was alive,
she returns to the Apostles again and tells them she’s seen Jesus.
When I think of this story, I
wonder what the Apostles were thinking when Mary first told them she had seen
Jesus. Did some of them think she was crazy, or simply hallucinating out of her
extreme grief? Were some of them confused? As the Scripture states, they didn’t
yet understand that Jesus would rise from the dead. I think it’s a pretty good
bet that some of them doubted—seriously doubted—that what she was telling them
could be true. As some of the disciples unknowingly tell Jesus, “we had hoped
that he was the one to redeem Israel” (Luke 24:21).[6] In
the same place they reported that some of the Apostles had gone to the tomb to
“see for themselves,” but they didn’t see Jesus (Luke 24:24). It would seem
that there was a wide variety of responses to Mary’s story, but it doesn’t seem
that faith was the primary one at first.
The plain truth is that faith is
difficult for some of us. There are all kinds of reasons for that. Some of us
simply cannot get past bad experiences we’ve had in church. Some of us have a
more questioning bent of mind, and we are more prone to doubt than to believe.
Others may simply find faith to be mostly irrelevant to the reality of our
lives. When our experience in life has been mostly tragedy, suffering,
hardship, rejection, and pain, it can seem like faith is just so many pretty
words. They may mean something to others, but they don’t have any real
significance for life as we have experienced it.
But I think for all of us—those
who are quick to believe and those who are slower to embrace faith—what makes
the difference is encountering Jesus, alive and present with us here and now.[7]
That’s what made the difference for most of the disciples on the first Easter.
When we have an encounter like that, it changes the way we see things—whether
we’re struggling with tragedy, or whether we’re living the good life, whether
we’re prone to believe or more prone to doubt. It enables us to see that God
does not operate within the limits of the way things normally work in our
world. An encounter with the living Christ can enable us to see God’s new
creation already working in hidden ways here among us. It enables us to see the
resurrection as a promise that points toward a future filled with hope and joy
and love and life.[8] Having an encounter with the risen Christ
makes it possible for us to see the realities of our lives from a completely different
perspective: it enables us to see and believe.[9]
[1] © 2015
Alan Brehm. A sermon delivered by Rev. Dr. Alan Brehm on 4/5/2015 at Hickman
Presbyterian Church, Hickman, NE.
[2] Cf. Shirley C. Guthrie, Christian Doctrine, 182: “when
we experience tragic suffering in our own lives and see so much tragic
suffering in the world, we wonder whether all talk about a loving and just God
is not in fact ... wishful thinking; cf. also John Caputo, On Religion, 91, where he lays
out the options: believing that the world of faith is what is “really real,”
believing that faith is “unreal” in comparison with the observable forces at
work in the world, and a third way, in which faith is directed toward the
reality that is beyond what our senses perceive as real.
[3] Scholars
speculate about why he was so quick to believe. Cf. Raymond Brown, “The
Resurrection in John 20: A Series of Diverse Reactions,” in Worship 64 no 3 (May
1990):194-98. Cf. also Raymond E. Brown, The
Gospel According to John XII-XXI, 1005: the emphasis on the Beloved
Disciple’s faith is not due to “Peter’s hardness of heart; rather faith is
possible for the Beloved Disciple
because he has become very sensitive to Jesus through love.”
[4] Cf.
Brendan Byrne, “The Faith of the Beloved Disciple and the Community in John
20,” Journal for the Study of the New
Testament 23 (1985):86.
[5] Cf.
Frank J. Matera, “John 20:1-18,” Interpretation
43 (Oct 1989):404. He says,
“Resurrection faith is a gift. It occurs
when God speaks to the hearts of believers, calling them by name.”
[6] Cf. G.
R. Beasley-Murray, John, 373: “The
lack of understanding of the Scriptures concerning the Messiah’s redemptive
work is beautifully illustrated in the Emmaus story (Luke 24:25–27, 32).”
[7] Cf. Karl
Barth, Church Dogmatics 4.2:144,
where he discusses the disciples’ ability to recognize the risen Christ. He
says that when they did recognize him, it was because ability to do so seems to
have been “given them by Jesus Himself.”
[8] Cf.
Jürgen Moltmann, The Way of Jesus Chris t, 26-27, 28, 30, 32-33; Jürgen Moltmann, The Church in the Power of the Spirit,
98-99, 191.
[9] “The Study Catechism,” Approved by the 210th General
Assembly Of the Presbyterian Church (U. S. A.) (1998), question 132, says it this way, “there
is … a depth of love which is deeper than our despair, and that this love …
will finally swallow up forever all that would now seem to defeat it.” Cf. also
Caputo, On Religion, 125:
in the face of the “specter of a heartless world of cosmic forces,” “Faith is
faith that there is something that lifts us above the blind force of things,
.... That there is something ... or someone ... who stands by us when we are up
against the worst, who stands by others, the least among us.”